Become soft that’s how u get hurt , fuck it i make money that’s my reason why I wake up In the morning
I try an try , but yet again I lose an lose. I stick up for someone an then that person walks away from me . I lose to 2 close friends for someone I’m so deeply passionate about an they walk bye me like I’m invisible.
I grew up with the thought of money, power & the addiction to fighting, and since I met you that has changed it really has, but I look in my neighbor hood an all I see are people stuck in the situation I was in. All of my boys are stuck or either dead or locked up its hard to imagine a better life knowing I can never get away it’s been a terrible day for me knowing I’m in a house an I have enough food to last an ALOT don’t
I miss you … I’m too scared to tell you I’m sorry I need my bestfriend bak I’m not the same I don’t have any other reason to breathe without you on my side… I hate to say it but I rely on you.. I haven’t smiled since we stopped talkin there are 3 words constantly going through my head ” you fucked up, You fucked up ” this is killing me.
The moment you realize you didn’t have friends at the beginning an you won’t have any at the end that’s the way life is for me an ill work with it. But at the end of the day after all the struggle and everything I look into my Lil brothers eyes an I realize it’ll be ok . If its not for me then it is for them so fuck it . I lost a bestfriend today . Felt like I got shot in the chest when I read that text but I understand.
I hurt this girl who honestly didn’t deserve it she wanted someone to love and I thought I could take that role but idk what happen no1 else can understand how I’m feeling, I never wrote about someone on some blog shit I never cried I never fought for a girl like how I have for her . I understand why you haven’t been the same I haven’t either . I’m sorry I hurt you I’m sorry.